Sketchbook (part 7)

Saturday, 20 November 2010

I often wonder why i like to make abstract drawings. It seems there are many reasons. One is that it is like a meditation: every line shows my moods and thoughts. Probably not for others, but surely for my. I can change the line if i don’t like the thought or mood that is behind it, but i cannot change that mood or thought. And it is impossible not to be aware of everything that goes on in my mind while i am trying to create an abstract drawing. For me the ideal abstract drawing would be a drawing that is not driven by any thought, emotion or desire. It feels as if i am slowly getting nearer to that ideal, but on the other end this ideal seems to be further away with every progress.
When i do ordinary illustrations there is always this voice in my head that says “this line is good, this line is wrong”. With abstract drawing it is the opposite: every line is good. The trick is to get rid of the idea that there is a right or a wrong, because that is only my mind trying to control the drawing. This may sound easy, but it is not. I am trained to judge a drawing from an illustators standpoint. To allow myself to make drawings that do not resemble anything, that serve no purpose and that are not pleasing anybody, not even myself, is difficult in a strange way.
Maybe i should not bother you with so much of these drawings. But i have not much else that i would like to share with you at this moment, and since this blog is somewhat of a diary, here are again some examples from my sketchbook:

While writing this, i listened to a live recording of a concert of The Gossip. Here it is! 80 minutes of music and 37 pictures of one of my favourite bands!